Tuesdays are usually pretty happy for me as they are one of the two days a week I get to spend writing. So I thought for this particular Tuesday, I would share a rather small teaser from my upcoming book Forever Blue.
It was raining. Ever since that night, it always rained. I didn’t know if it was only in my mind, but it felt real.
After another evening when sleep evaded me, I hopped in the Fairlane and drove. There was something cathartic about driving that car, a unique form of punishment that I knew I deserved. I found myself perched on the barrier, looking over the water on the corner of Stone’s Throw Road which followed the lake and ran close to the edge of the cliff. It was the only place I could think to go when repeatedly drawing the images in my head no longer worked. I didn’t look behind me at the grass or the ditch that I knew dipped on the other side of the road. I think she wanted me there. I never used to like being alone, but ever since that night, being around other people was too much effort. I felt like I had to hide and I was tired of hiding. Watching the drops fall onto the water was comforting. They were unaware of my thoughts, unaware of the turmoil of my life. They did what they were supposed to. They fell.
I love writing, I really do. It’s what I want to spend my life doing. I love to sit down at the keyboard with ideas running through my brain and my fingers struggling to keep up. At the moment I’m in the editing phase which isn’t as fun as the actual writing, but I still enjoy it. I have not looked at the draft of my book for six weeks and it gives me somewhat of a fresh approach. This week was the first time I got back into it after the school holidays. And by ‘it’ I mean the Abby Wilder part of my life. My boy and my girl started back at school and I had my usual day off work, so I sat down at my computer ready to get back into it.
I was excited. I had looked forward to this day for weeks. So why was it that when I sat down at my computer, I did everything else apart from work on my novel?
I opened Facebook and somehow stumbled across an article on Zero Carb lifestyles. I ended up on a blog with interviews of people eating this way and I was fascinated. A few articles in and I realised I was getting distracted, so I pulled myself away and determined to start reading/editing. Then I thought I might check on the sales of my books. I hadn’t done that in a while and since it was my first day back on the job so to speak, I thought it would be a good idea. I was pleasantly surprised by the sales and downloads ticking by, considering my lack of marketing. But since I had checked the sales, I thought I should really pop over to Goodreads and Amazon and check out the reviews. While reading reviews my thoughts usually vary from, ‘Yes, they get me! They totally understood what I was trying to portray. They loved my characters! Life is so wonderful right now I could explode with happiness,’ to, ‘Oh my goodness, why are people so cruel. I think I will curl up into a ball and gently rock myself to sleep.’
So it was about time I started editing. I was looking forward to it. I wanted to edit, but I found myself blindly clicking links on Twitter, looking at pretty pictures of characters on Tumblr, back on Facebook sighing over articles and chuckling over status updates, and checking out cute kitten pictures on Instagram. I have three cats. I like them. Most days.
I even considered writing this blog post, but I admitted to myself that writing a blog post about avoiding editing was in itself another form of procrastination, so two hours after I should have started, I finally did.
And I enjoyed it. I got lots done. And I was annoyed I had wasted so much time at the beginning of my day because I could have accomplished so much more.
So why do we do it to ourselves?
Why do we procrastinate even from the things we want to be doing?
If you think I am going to give some profound answer into the thought process of the human psyche, sorry. I am asking the question, not answering it.
I was told that writing is like a muscle. You must exercise it in order for it to grow. And for your muscles to grow, you’ve got to move. You can’t sit on the couch and think about moving. You can’t read articles on the benefits of moving or the ways in which you should move. You’ve actually got to get off your backside and do it. I needed to pick up the draft of my book and start. Which I did . . . eventually.
So I have forgiven myself for my little veer off course into procrastination and next week I will get straight into it. I promise. I hope. Well, let’s just say the intention is there. The best of intentions.
Okay, so maybe we’ll just wait and see what happens.
I have given up on marketing. Not all aspects of marketing, but the marketing that involves other people – Book blogs, promotion groups etc. When it comes down to it, I have limited time to spend on my writing, and the time I do have I would rather write than invest my time in marketing.
That’s not to say I don’t do anything. I just do my own thing, without spending too much time on it, and whatever happens, happens. In the future I will look into book promotion sites, but for now I am happy to type away on my blog and varying social media sites.
So what do I do?
I’m on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr and Pinterest. I try to have different content on each social media outlet. I post quotes that I love on Tumblr. I post photos on Instagram. I’m a little overwhelmed by Twitter so I use it as a feed for my other sites, and since I’m most comfortable with Facebook it is where you will most likely find the odd boosted post. Since GBG is currently free, I have boosted a few posts to get the word out with promotional images like this.
If you search book marketing and promotion, google will come back with 24,300,000 results. I’ve looked at most of these, (not really, but it feels like it) and they all say different things. Then again, a lot say the same thing. So I’ve decided to do my own thing. It’s probably not the right thing to do, but I only do what I feel comfortable with. And maybe one day, when I have more books out there, I will attack the promotional ideas again.
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